Chapter 3
It had been planned..already planned by Dr. Iyer to go for preterm cesarean..If Dr. Iyer visited Sudesh that was just his inner guilt (some where he was not responsible ) who brought him to Maan's Maama..He couldn't decide how to take responsibility of her as a Doctor ..or as Guardian to familiar one...
Keeping all his turmoil..his guilt and emotions apart...it came out to be a doctor's duty as dominance over everything.. He had to wait for one weak so that Geet could reach a certain stage of her term...and where it became possible( still life threatening to go for cesarean) ...Somehow staff tackled with her for few days more...
Wasn't it a joke ? A Mother-to-be didn't even know she gonna be mother..Or it was such an incident which left many people heart broken who were looking after her for months...Many among staff were ready to take care of baby but according to rules of the centre they were bound to their duties... Also one reason mostly they belonged to middle class so hard to adopt and take responsibility of child alone..Except sending baby to orphanage there was no other option left with...
That day arrived when Geet was taken to nearby hospital for cesarean (as rehab had no such facility like OT section)..where Dr. Iyer already had arranged things..She was uncontrollable..not ready to be on stracher when staff brought her in hospital from ambulance...She was pushing them..rubbing her legs on sheet...screaming aloud....
"Dr. Iyer what you think ? Isn't it gonna be dangerous...or we are going against law...?" Assistant gynecologist Dr. Vrinda whispered near to Dr. Iyer's ear when Geet was taken for tests before cesarean..She / Vrinda was much scared...Her totally wet forehead , and fearful eyes narrating her inner dilemma to be or not to be part of this..
"I think more than Geet you are losing your mind...How we are taking law in our hands ? ...If we are doing a crime huh bolo ?.According to our profession..the first thing we learn is to save a patient's life....And if cesarean is any crime tell me ?.Throughout my career I have done more than 50 cesareans.." He was losing his temper...due to Dr. Vrinda's foolish narration of whole case... but controlled somehow..
"Maine to Geet ki haalat dekh kar kaha..It seems we are going against her wish..like she is not willing but we are compelling..I am sorry Dr...." she made puppy face..entangling both hands fingers and rubbing them in fright...
"Bas ho gaya tumhara aaj ka sochne ka kota puraa !!!.So now concentrate on preparations..Go to OT...Its really very complicated case for us ..so keep calm and don't think anything else..." He instructed directing her toward OT...
According to reporters her BP was little high with fast heart rate...and she was mentally restless...Dr. Iyer knew same situation gonna arrive in front of him..if not today then after some more weeks or days..and gonna be more critical day by day..He decided not to postpone but gave go ahead...Instead of local anesthesia (absence of sensation in any certain part as usually doctor do while cesarean) ..Dr.didn't left with other option than General anesthesia it means to make her fully unconscious..
They did so...Things were moving as they should be..Made her fully unconscious....But there was no one ..no one ...not a single soul in a country of millions..who was waiting for her...wishing for her and baby's well being outside OT...
Certainly there was something going on in her unconscious mind...In between this process her pulse was dropping..She was breathing heavily..Such a blood loss which was not expected...But somehow Dr.Iyer became successful in bringing a life to this world safely which was unsafe in her mother's womb...A premature but healthy baby girl....On other hand Geet's condition worsen.. Immediately she got shifted to ICU...As precautionary measures Baby was also kept under special observation..
For Geet next 12 hours were critical...Blood..Drip..Oxygen Mask..Different health monitoring equipments knitted a net around her...Intentionally they kept her unconscious for longer time so she couldn't hurt herself..even she didn't know about stitches she had.. But Dr. Iyer he was much worried thinking if she went to coma..what to do then ?? Inspecting her ..he went to have a glimpse of baby...
" Is maasom ko yeh tak bhi nahi patta k yeh to ussi din anaath (orphen) ho gayi thi jab apni Maa ka hissa banni...Isko apna kehna walla koi nahi per ha iski zindgi ka faisla kare waale kai hai...I am one among them..." He put hand over baby's head lovingly...His eyes gone wet..Looking at that little creature..Such a cute n innocent she was just like her mother..Who was replica of her so called father...Who didn't even sensed her presence...
She was feeling hungry ..Started to cry in feeble voice...so suck on her fist..folding soft tiny pink fingers...Which left Dr. Iyer total emotionally heart broken...Sudden feeling of sending her to orphanage hit him inside deep...
He cried ...cried aloud even keeping his image as top most gynicologist of country apart...He bent on his knees...removed his spects...When some one put hand over his shoulder sympathetically.."Anna..(brother) please calm down " Dr. Iyer's sister Vijaya she was behind him..She knew whole case ...how emotional her brother was ? Who could understand him more... His special bond with Geet she was also aware about it..So she decided to support him here...
Dr. looked back..Finding his sister's presence there he wiped his eyes quickly and got up.. "Vijaya!! you here...but you had an important meeting then...?" surprised he questioned...
"Anna !! who knew you better than me ..Mujhe patta tha aapki yahi haalat hogi ... For you I am here..as always your emotional support.." holding his hands she replied softly...
" Thank you Vijaya... thank you...for being here..I really needed you...see...see. this little creature's destiny ...she belongs to one of top aristocratic family in country...still had no her place for her... neither among those aristocrats nor in her parents lives..For one/Maan its his reputation and for other/Geet...she exist or not nothing matters....What other option left for her except orphanage " he cried his heart in front of his sister in one go..
"Anna...I know it is heart wrenching but there is no fault of your in this..Per ha iss bachi ko orphanage agar bhejna he na padde fir..? " she quoted which was like a riddle for him .... struckdumb he looked her with a hope...
What she was upto...If her rehab committee got ready to change rules and to keep baby there... "What you wanna say ...? Please tell me in simple words...aise ghuma firaa k baat mat karo.."
"I mean it will be not in our hands who gonna adopt this baby...kaise hongay...kon hongay jo isko adopt karegay...How they gonna behave with her...What upbringing she will get..We don't know ...But I came wit a proposal Anna...if you find appropriate for her future...." Preparing her brother mentally to accept her proposal she uttered..
"Proposal !! " He was not able to get what exactly she had in her mind...
"Ya proposal Anna ...A couple who want to adopt a child...so we can think about it....and why I am saying this because I know them from years bahut ache log hai wo...aur yeh bachi isko unse jayada achi tarah koi nahi paal ( give upbringing ) sakta..." looking at baby lovingly she disclosed at last what she had for him...
He thought again and again..rubbed his forehead in anxiety ..if this was really a miracle gonna happen...some one was coming as saviour for this innocent life..He kept mum Vijaya kept eye on his each moment but said nothing as she knew her brother gonna take some time...
At last he open up...a chirp of smile came to his calm face.."Vijaya...I know you...you never judge anyone wrong..If you opted that couple... definitely they will be eligible to adopt baby...But I want to meet them once..." he accepted his sister's proposal in high spirits..Like when there was no way to choose...his sister came to show him right direction ..
"No...Na Anna...I assure you about that couple on my responsibility... But I can't reveal their identity...Even to you because you are very close friend to Sudesh Anna...and I am afraid if by chance some day you reveal their identity...I don't want any issue regarding it in future...so left this to me....please..." She clearly denied...what her brother asked some where she was right on her place..
" Kya ? What are you saying Vijaya...it is important for me...its matter of her future...and why you think that I can disclose all in front of Sudesh. ? When he had totally separated himself from Geet and her child or any matter related to her..." Irritated he replied..
"Anna now you are thinking about baby's future...What if you send her to any orphanage..If you gonna keep eye on every person who will be there willing to adopt her...I think you have not that much time huh...fir...Now when there is a straight way solution in front of you...If you think I am wrong then do what you want...But I am still on my term...'" She taunted him...bringing reality in front of him...This was true it was not possible for Dr. Iyer to look after each and every development in orphanage...So he left with no other option...He had to accept and he dropped weapons in front of his sister...
On other hand it was a matter of relief Geet was recovering...still it had been decided to keep her on mild tranquilizers for few more days so that she couldn't get hyper and her stitches could heel in proper way....After four days she was being shifted to rehab..Both brother and sister were of top reputation...so no one dared to ask or to oppose Vijaya when she took baby third day..without any legal formality and she handed her over to the couple she asked about to her Anna...
Leaving Geet under supervision of trained staff again Dr. Iyer went back to Bangalore ... little worried...but much satisfied about Geet's health post cesarean and baby's future She was conscious...fully conscious now...Many times felt pain in stitches then started to scratch that part...Why that pain was even she was not aware understand...
After she came back staff felt lots of changes in her..Like she instead of shouting...being violent....rehab people found her crying...sobbing...Putting her hands on her stomach and rubbing..
Usually she set on that little extension at window inside her room and continuously looking around the crowd of people because this rehab was not for mental patients but for all kind of people recovering...So always rush was there everywhere...
" eh...eh....tumne usko dekha..." holding window bars many times..tried to question people ...attract them...But no one was there to listen as she was on first floor and her voice not reachable to anyone..
After getting no reply as her habit she fell on floor near to bed.Putting her face down to chilling floor...and crying bitterly " Koi nahi bataata...kisi ne nahi dekha..."
What these changes were....? Why suddenly emotions were coming out of her mentally unstable brain when she had forgotten her own identity...But those were post pregnancy change..
Postpartum Depression
A known medical condition..could happen to any women after pregnancy...Where we find totally change of behavior in mother...It could be mental..social...physical....let not to discuss it in detail.. its not any medical class huh...Geet might not be aware of her pregnancy...her child...but somewhere she could sense there was something she always felt with her had been parted now..something moving inside her from months... She couldn't feel that movement inside her now..But she couldn't react or didn't have that emotions which could express the storm developing in her mind...
Already mentally unstable girl now moved toward serious depression...
As per verbal contract between him and his sister Dr. kept mum like nothing happened and almost parted self from Sudesh..neither Sudesh contacted him for long...
After 5 months
Who became Victim of circumstances after all...Maan Singh Khuraana ? Who already had torn away this chapter from his life and busy in making reputation of man with moral...as university topper was he already...No he was not victim instead he earned....Maama Ji ?..No..even some where he was under guilt...he always consoled himself that he did it for the betterment of both Maan and Geet.....Or Dr. Iyer who had a soft corner for Geet and some where he felt bit relief giving Geet's baby in safe hands as his sister asked him to do...
Just only and only one poor soul came out to be sole Victim..Geet..What she gained...What she lost ? What benefit she had..Yes she had a benefit..no one got to know she was pregnant in her town...but at the sake of losing everything...Her parents....her home ....all dear ones....dreams....mental stability..even that child due to whom she went through all this....She was only and only victim..
It was wrong to say her Victim Of Circumstances.....If circumstances were such which brought her to verge of devastation of her whole life...But after that those people who were also involved in those circumstances ...Now they created such circumstances leaving Geet sole victim to keep their image clean in front of so called society ...
One day Dr.Iyer phone bell rang ...
"Dr....saab please come to rehab...Geet ka kuch patta nahi chal raha...wo yahan kahi nahi hai..we searched each and every place...Even Vijaya mam is busy in all this she asked me to inform you...She is using her all links to find out Geet.." Geet's care taker at rehab.Stella informed in her shivering voice...
"Geet ka kuch patta nahi...? " he mumbled then burst " What's going on huh ?..Itna staff aur security personals k hote hue wo kahan challi gayi...? I am coming..." he threw his phone on table in anger...he reached rehab quickly...without wasting time...After hunt of one whole month they couldn't find out Geet's wheres about...It was useless to tell Sudesh so Dr. Iyer went back with almost lost hope...
Two month later ( two months later after Geet disappeared....one month they spent in her search and add one more to that search operation for her ..)
Hospital Roshini ( fir se hospital you might be thinking ? ....No juttas for me please )
Mumbai
"Betay , how are you feeling now ? " A soft feminine voice with much decency questioned someone...
An Elegant Lady in her late forties...dressed up in traditional Indian Sari asked that girl on hospital bed...She rolled her hand over girl's head lovingly...
Who was that girl....? No one could ever think...i? It was like a jolt...None other than Geet...How she reached Mumbai ..? Far away from Bangalore... which took around 15 hours by own vehicle...and more surprisingly how it was possible a mentally unstable girl like her to reach here..
Frantic Geet looked at that lady with her fearful eyes..She rolled her whole body bending legs...bringing near to face..."k..k...kon ho tum..? " she shivered tried to hide her face underneath her bent legs..
"Don't be scared of me..Beta..I am Somya...Somya Bajaj....aur aapki friend.." She giggled..Mildly sparing her legs from her own clutch and bringing to straighten posture...
"Meri friend...no no ..tum gandi( bad) ho...sab gande hai..." she screamed aloud..hitting Somya hard..But she kept her calm..
"Nahi beta aisa nahi hai...sab gande nahaai hai...Sachi main tumse milne aayi hu..tum to achi bachi ho na...fir aise karte hai kya ache bache..." affectionately she grabbed her face in hands ...If Geet was behaving as expected...Somya's determination didn't let herself apart from Geet..But what was that due to which she was showering extraordinary affection on Geet..
How Geet reached here far away...? She couldn't ..so let me narrate..
When she was in Rehab...She attempted many times to elope from there under her madness....always failed but this time she succeeded...During some repairing work going on in rehab..she had been shifted to another place temporarily near to main gate..
She found an ambulance near to open gate..just going out..after shifting a patient here so was empty. "kissi ko nahi patta wo kahan hai..muje nahi batta rahe...aur na mujhe jaane dete hai.. " she mumbled...She hided herself in that van..nobody could doubt something like this could happen...
Ambulance was moving toward another hospital to which it belonged...She peeped raising herself little bit..back of Driver's seat was high so he couldn't catch her.. She was again in front of hospital..Scared of that all when driver stopped ambulance for a while at main ...She jumped out of van successfully..
Where to go..she didn't know...here and there...twice moving vehicle were to hit her.But in busy life of metropolitan who care about anyone...In same condition she reached nearby railway station ..She didn't know she was at railway station but a coincidence...But this section of station was for loading/unloading freight trains or usually known as MaalGaadi
" Yeh rail gaadi hai.." sher eyes twinkled in joy.." main na isme beith jaati hu.." she thought..It seemed almighty had showered pitty on poor girl after much time..She set in one box which was coincidentally lodded to transport eatableto another place.. Biscuits... Rosted Nuts...Mathdi..Gujhiya...Even some boxes of famous brand fruit drinks..
She was hungry when found picture of biscuits outside packaging..opened it with much difficulty...even opened many other boxed...She ate how much her digestive system allowed..When much tired Girl Was under effect of deep sleep she didn't know...Route of train was from Bangalore to Mumbai so it finished at Mumbai...
Train was there from two hours waiting for unloading of each item...She she felt humid and hot she got up...looked around..When found train was not moving form much time ..She came out of it hiding self from other eyes...Not much people were there as was freight track....So escaped from there..crossing tracks hurriedly ...
I think getting much lengthy...to be continued...
Sonia..
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